LiFe iS gReAt!!!!

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GOd blessed me with a great guy named Teri!!!

Hope everyone is doing good!!!

sometimes life is so hard...

                     i have hit rock bottom and i need prayer.. lately nothing in my life has been going right. i was telling a friend how i am depressed and how i have been trying to trust in the Lord with all these things going wrong.. but its so hard. i have been unhappy for about 2 or 3 weeks.. and things just keep getting worse.. i try to trust in God.. but i feel like giving up... please pray that i dont. people judge me from my past.. or if i make one mistake i get judge on it. i know i am not perfect.. at all.. i am just trying to the best i can. i know i am going to fail. when people say things to me and put me down, it says in my head and makes me feel like a failure. thats what i feel like right now... a failure. i feel like i never will be liked... i feel.. stupid for once in my life. i feel unwanted.. i just feel overall depressed. this is not for you to feel bad for me.. i just want pray.. i dont want to give up. my old lifestyle before i found Jesus was not good at all.. but i feel like with all my depression i am having its leading there..

thanks

GOD answers PRAYERS! I AM FREE! I gave my WHOLE heart to God and let him take my life over.. and wow.. I feel overjoyed with the love that God has for me..

I need to just trust in Him... and all will go according to His will. 

Pray about what God wants me to do with my life after high school.. i need direction!

I need boldness

Sometimes in my life i disappoint myself as i am also disappointing God. I try so hard to please God in ALL the aspects of my life. I dont sit here and drink, do drugs, or sex or anything like that. Its the little things. I find myself start to gossip. I hate that.GOd made everything wonderful so why do i sit here and put a creation of God down! Sometimes i am so hard on myself. i WISH i wasnt. Like i pray and ask God to forgive me of sins.. and sometimes ill ask forgiveness for something that happened 2 months ago.. and i already repented just wont let myself forget about it and i come to ask for forgiveness agaiN! Then i tend to let things come inbetween my walk with God. Why do i do this? I just have such a hard time saying no to people or hurting peoples feeling. SO i am knowing its bad influence and i need to step away but i dont.

In the end...

I wanna be able to give my WHOLE life to God- my mouth, my thoughts, my friends-  anything or anyone up for HIM!!! i feel like i am close to that.. just scared to reach that point so i havent stepped foward.. Pray for me for boldness

The ROOM!!

i was at christinas the other night and she read me a great story.. i really wanna tell yall about it..

It was in the book "Kissing Dating Goodbye" it was talking about a dream he had.. well he was dreaming this

he was in a room. it had lots of filling cabinents with card labeling each.. the labels were everything he ever did.. laughing at his brother.. lustful thoughts..  books he has read.. comfort he has given.. different topic towards that nature. inside were all the things he has ever done... He signature was at the bottom to make sure it was the man that did all these. Some made him cry and others made him laugh.. then he reach this one.. it was shinner and looked newer than all the others. its name was "people i have told christ about" he opened it to only find a few. He started crying harder now. well then he tried destoring these cards. he came to find out he couldnt. they were made of steel. He wanted NO ONE to see that room! well he saw a man.. he came to find out it was Jesus. The man begain to cry.. Jesus cried with him. Then Jesus went through all the cards... and wrote his name over the guys signature. in RED.. IN HIS BLOOD!!!!!!!!

JESUS FORGAVE THE MAN FOR ALL HIS SINS JUST LIKE HE FORGIVES U!!

ROmans 13:12 So let us put aside the deeds of darkness and put  out on the armor of light"